Realize

“Thank you, but you know that I like someone else, right?”

“I know,” she replied with a smile not reaching her eyes.

She holds onto her composure as they bid farewell.

Away from prying eyes, she locks herself in the shower, letting the cold spray hit her. Everything falls apart as her emotional dam breaks, making her sob, tremble, and gasp – for air, for understanding. She slides down to the cold wet floor, dry-heaving, pressing her palm to her closed eyes until she sees colors burst, as if not seeing the world will make her invisible.

“No more what-ifs, then.”

Daily Movement

Dad’s been giving me natural laxatives every morning. 

As part of what my dad believes is healthy living, he makes a drink-blend of apples, bananas, carrots, and whatever other fruits and vegetables available in the kitchen. Basically, he tosses everything (chopped in small cubes) in a blender. The concoctions are baby food-like – usually more solid than liquid – and call for spoons instead of straws. The texture is far from that of a smoothie: dad simply uses a blender instead of a juicer to keep the fibers in. The taste is, well, a blend of everything –fruity sourness and bitter peels, sometimes sweetened by ripe bananas or another fruit. It’s not much visually, but that is what is expected of mashed produce. It is the nutrients inside that count, my dad keeps telling me.

We (mom and I) usually drink them after breakfast. It makes a good non-sweetened dessert for me, easily consuming a bunch of fruits in a few gulps.

And in a few minutes, the toilet seat is my throne for half an hour.

How to adult?

I lived with the notion that on one of my birthdays, something will magically click, switching on an adult version of me inside – one that is mature, responsible, and wise. I thought it would happen on my eighteenth birthday – the "debut to adulthood".

Well, it didn’t. Bummer, I thought, but it was not the end of days. I had three more years of undergrad, plus probably a few more in the workforce, unless I get into grad school, that might jolt my inner adult awake. Probably.

This blog is in mourning

I put on a random layout temporarily on my blog as I try to make a better one (with the help my friend). The final product turned out to be aggressively dark. Look at all the black!

Anyway, new layout will be up soon (I hope). Let's just mourn with this blog for the time being.

So I watched TV

I bummed on the couch in front of the TV after dinner. Juan dela Cruz was on. They were already having a countdown to its finale: five days left. About time, I thought because I wasn't really a fan.

Tonight’s episode was, I believe, the turning point of the whole series – the major battle between the forces of good and evil. As the pawns of the evil side started moving through the dramatic fog, the good guys all get tensed up, until the lead man, Juan dela Cruz himself, yelled “CHARGE!”

Thunder

Perspectives change, and here's a very good example.

Age 4: That was a very scary sound! I never ever ever want to hear that again. MOMMY!

Age 7: Dad said the gods are playing bowling in heaven. Thunder is when the ball hits the pins. He said that lightning is because of celes– heavenly cameras with flash taking pictures of the game.

Age 10: My aunt said that when God sees people doing bad things, He gets angry and lets out thunder and lightning to scare evildoers. I'm not scared of thunder and lightning anymore; I'm no evil.

Age 12: So here's what really happens: when particles bump into each other, energy is released and it is perceived as lightning (light energy) and thunder (sound energy). Science.

Age 16: OMG! It's Thor! The god of thunder has blessed us with a show of his magnificent powers! THOR! *fangirl squeal*

Age 18: I'll just be warm and cozy under my blankets and sit in a corner of my room and let it– HOLY FREAKING GLOB THAT'S LOUD.


Context: There has been rain with lightning and thunder (I'm not sure if it can be categorized as thunderstorm yet) every night since the start of the week. Some loud bang like glasses crashing and gunshots woke me up one night, and, thus, this.

How to cook your egg, sunny-side up

Yesterday, I have finished a book. I am proud of this fact because it has been my summer vacation for two weeks yet I have not read a full novel. It has been a long time and I think my brain has dried out of its creative juices. So here I am, writing my time away, hoping to have my thinking machine oiled and tuned up, ready to create and recreate pieces of literature in my head and through my pen (or laptop, in this case).

To start my gears turning, perhaps a little how-to of a common household chore? Simple enough? Interestingly, the most trivial of things is what I find to be the most difficult to write. If you have not seen my previous post on brushing teeth, please check it out to understand my... situation.

That's what people do!

Crazy people, that is. Thanks to a friend, who will be left unnamed for "security" reasons, for sharing a YouTube video of a compilation of a certain product commercial. The video may or may not cause serious brain damage, convulsions, laughter fits, and differing views about an endangered species. Watch at your own risk.

I should warn you: Never say never...

30 days and counting down

Let's be excited and countdown the days until Christmas. After all, there is only one month to go. And now, say goodbye to my right mind and hello to a confused list of priorities. On one hand, I have homework to do and lessons to do study. On the other, end-of-the-month, payday and Christmas sales are up and it's time for the annual presents shopping. My wallet is about to die from money hemorrhage, if it is not already dead.

Turning legal

They say that when a girl turns 18, her parents would dress her up in the most beautiful of dresses and throw her a party, with all their adult friends invited, as their daughter's debut to adulthood. It is when the parents present to the whole world that their daughter has reached the ripe old legal age, has blossomed into a supposed lady and is high time for her to choose a mate.

Hold up. Does that mean when I turn 18, I need to get married ASAP? I don't even have a boyfriend yet. Can't I just learn to drive and get my license first?

I'm home...

...and my semestral break has commenced! So, what have I been up to?

For starters, I am trying to devour as much books, movies, TV shows and food as I can in the span of my (almost) three-week vacation. I have luck on my side as I just finished "Nevermore" by James Patterson today, which I started yesterday while waiting for my flight in the departure area, and I am already in the second chapter of "Crossed" by Ally Condie. More books up ahead for me. Regarding the movies and TV shows, my sister and I are working together on this one. (Talk to me if you really want to know how we are doing.)

I have access to food, and lots of them for that matter. Tonight I'm cooking fried rice with sautéd shrimp paste (bagoong rice) and I hope it turns out just fine. I'm trying to be a good cook, though there's no need for that since I stay in a dormitory without a kitchen, but, still, I want to cook. And with that, I'll be sharing my creations every now and then and boast to the world how yummy they are. Ha ha!

I hope I have fun with this short vacation, and I hope you do, too. Oh, and do you have suggestions of books for to read or movies or TV shows for me to watch or food that you want me to experiment with? Go ahead and share them with me. I'll be more than willing to try them out.

Halloween costume suggestions

I passed by a few toy stores today and they were already displaying costumes for Halloween. Since October is just two days away and Halloween is another month's wait, I decided to make a list of possible costume ideas that people with similar taste as mine would like. It's funny that I'm making this but I'm not really a fan of dressing up. Maybe I'll have fun this year and try doing one of these, even if it entails for me to cross-dress  So without further ado, here we go.

At the Airport

Nobody told me that the best way to start the first day of the month is to wait patiently for a flight in a nearly deserted airport.


It turned out that it is not the best experience after all. I discovered this fact ever so slowly tonight, or rather, this morning. This was my first time to fly without sunshine. With my mother and former elementary classmate, I fight away sleep as we wait for our plane in the dead of the night. It was made even harder by our fellow passengers who are lying on benches or leaning on the shoulder of whoever was beside them, apparently on their way to dreamland.

Goodbye, Summer

It's as if my heart is being squeezed like a stress-relieving ball and I don't think I'll get over this feeling soon.

It's past my bedtime already, I know, but I'm trying to prolong my stay here at home. At least my hours awake, that is. I still have some time to rest later since my flight is still tonight.

I have been packing my clothes and stuff in my suitcase for hours. Half the time, though, I wasn't even packing. I was just sitting on my bed with a lump in my throat that just can't go away. Up until now, I can't lock my suitcase yet.

How to brush your teeth

Writing how-tos and recipes can help exercise one's literary skills, I was told. It teaches the value of proper ordering and sequencing, even of simple ideas. It also teaches the necessity of using the correct action words. Writing step-by-step guides helps in practicing writing transitions as it deals with,well, steps after steps after steps. It also makes a wonderful topic when you have nada.

I won't say that I am an expert in brushing teeth but I find the task so easy that I don't even have to think when I'm doing it. I thought it will be effortless to write about it. What a fool I have been for thinking wrongly! I underestimated the power of these no-brainer tasks.

April Fools

Because there is no better way to celebrate the first of April than to make a fool of oneself.

I have been playing around with the Webcam Toy. I'm not really sure how my webcam vanity started but I have been enjoying it grandly. And here are the evidences. Take your pick.

This is the way to fool around.

Caricature of Me: big eyes and big teeth.

The Hungry Games

With all the hype about The Hunger Games, I can't help but feel left out. You see, I have not read the book nor watched the movie. My sister discouraged me to read the books a few months back. She explained to me why and the reasons will be left undisclosed. On the other hand, I don't want to watch the movie before reading the book. (I have learned my lesson from HP the hard way, thank you very much.) Then I found this newly uploaded video by reallyannoyingorange.

It was a laugh-fest as my friends and I watched this. And take note that my friends have read and watched THG already. I believe that their opinions are legit. If you enjoyed THG, I guess you'll enjoy The Hungry Games, if not annoyed by Orange. Totally worth the watch.

And that's that. All I really want was to mention The Hunger Games. Ha!

Finals start tomorrow

"I'm going home, to a place where I belong

Where your love has always been enough for me"

- Home by Daughtry

Simple Ideas

I was just scanning through my Facebook notifications when I saw that my friend tagged me to a link she shared. I checked it and found out how awesome the site is. Awesome because I found this video:

This video is entitled "How simple ideas lead to scientific discoveries" uploaded by TED Education. It's inspiring to know how simple ideas can turn into ground-breaking discoveries. It is awesome to think that long ago, people before were able to discover all those things even without the technology that we have today. It was even more fun to watch the video with Adam Savage in it.

Finals

Lookie what I did with Meme Generator!

Ha! Well, that's just about it. To all students out there whose final examinations are coming, may you be an Isko from UP, an Atenista, a Lasalista, a Thomasian or any college student for that matter, be strong, have faith and study hard. Even if you have piles of homeworks to do like I do, keep calm and finish them all. Don't let your inner demons turn you into a lazy bone. We can do this!

And this is what I do to when I'm supposed to finish my pile of school work. Teehee.